Wednesday, January 19, 2011

young and in love...


I have always heard the term “bros before hoes”.i have forever thought that the wording it as such was wrong.not every girl is a hoe and just because a guy friend has now found a girl that he wants to be with and she happens to takes his time away from you does not make her a hoe.technically the appropriate definition of a hoe is as follows: a long handled gardening tool.in the dictionary the “hoe” that is explained in the catch phrase for a lack of a better term is in fact spelt ho; as in the laugh that Santa Claus has.it was not until recent times in which children of my computer generation have denied the writing of a dictionary and add an “e” to the end of it.

As I was saying that term, goodness that term.i my self have never used that term.one considering I am a girl.and two well I need not find it necessary to use such a phrase.however due to recent and horrid events I find the need to shout that term in the ear through a megaphone as loud as I possibly can to the,I am sorry if you are reading this, but moronic bestfriend I have.
I am a strong advocate for love.firm believer.always have been and most definitely always will be.however with that I do believe that in most cases your first love will not be your only love.now if you reading this have been one of those fortunate people that have had your first love be your only love, well then I stand and bow down to you while applauding because you have been in the rare few percentage of people that have been able to find a first real love.
My story for you….i have a friend.a rather honest bestfriend.a rather honest intelligent great bestfriend.my bestfriend, he has been hit with Cupids dagger of a love arrow.ahhh to be young and in love.however as much love as he believed he felt, or did or did not really feel love he had been heart broken.
-first before I continue I must say that I do not believe in “breaks”.they are stupid.they mean nothing.and if one really needs a break well then it was not meant to be.maybe that is harsh but it is reality.coming from experience when ever a girl says that she needs a break I can tell you why….there is another boy.and for the time being she wants to do what ever and who ever she pleases….but ask any other high school girl at the moment and without a doubt she would most likely tell you the same thing.unless she is lying.

Any ways this is his first semi real love.it was bound to happen sooner or later.i was extremely happy for him.i had yet to meet her, actually at this point none of us (our”family”that is)happened to be graced with the opportunity of meeting our good friends new fling.they traveled through a couple months.the accurate time I could not tell you,seeing as I was hardly privileged to know about this relationship..or her for that matter.well your dumb and in love.so they messed up a little, as most couples do.i would go into detail however that is not part of my life so I will just leave the human mind to wander.as I was saying they had messed up.nothing too bad just a few tiffs.

Now from what I do know this girl is young.i mean if you thought I was young then she is a baby..a junior to be exact.now love knows no bounds and age is nothing but a number however I cannot deny the fact that age at times does play a small factor in being with anyone.according to what I have pulled from the talks/arguments that my so called bestfriend and I have had she was not ready for a relationship.she could not handle it.it was too much and therefore she left.she left him broken hearted.he could not handle it.i had believed that my bestfriend was strong but when love breaks,it shatters.

It was seen that he had somewhat moved on.he had a new girl in mind.he had loosely dated her.very loose.and no matter how I had perceived her he seemed happy so therefore I did not have much to say.she was a colorful character and after she got him fired, well needless to say I was most definitely not her biggest fan.as  I heard that this girl,the old girl was once again involved.eh some break correct.i do not believe in them however I am willing to say that a break means that one does not involve their self with that person in which they are on a break with.it just seems logical if I do say so my self.

Now to the tough stuff, he asked for my opinion so I gave it to him.i told him what I thought.he would listen but he would not truly hear.so here it was he went back to her.ahh sheer stupidity.nothing more nothing less.i do not care what he does with his life.as dumb as I thought it was I still reluctantly shut my mouth and was for a lack of a better word happy.the thing I do not appreciate is basically getting a screw you im going to do what I want,your opinion means nothing at all to me kind of result.which is what I got.

I normally do not do this but if I am wrong then so be it.i understand that he needs to learn things on his own however with this I do not see it fit that I get shoved out of the way..to top it off well he does not understand the whole matter of the situation.i suppose it is just upsetting cannot be happy when I know that she will just do this again.i feel as if I am just trying to look out for him.but in the end it means nothing.and for that he is willing and oddly enough able to just let go of the friendship that we once had.

Maybe I am being over dramatic.maybe this was just the way it was meant to happen.maybe God did or did not lay this deck of cards out for our friendship.perhaps tomorrow this will all go away.suppose one day we just get better.however those days are to be in the future.though at this moment we are here and now…

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